Because you killed someone? And tried to sort of get away with it?
[ ... ]
...either way, I can't be too mad at you. This week, was...well, even I felt a little tempted. And as awful as it was those two died, I don't think I really was that close to either of them.
[ Well, he anticipated the coldness in some form, but it is in this answer that feels odd to him. All of the reminders, which must have painful, and Raven just states...'it was what had to be done'?
That's...it doesn't make sense.
It doesn't sound like something Raven would say. Or he supposed, the one he 'knew'. ]
...What do you mean 'what had to be done'? I don't understand.
I'm glad you didn't enjoy doing this type of thing...I just hate that you feel you have to do it at all.
[ He folds his fingers tightly together, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment, before opening them again; thankfully no tears so maybe he is finally used to losing people he likes to hang aroud now. After reviewing this, he doesn't think this is something he could've prevented. No matter how hard he tried. Or anyone else, really. ]
I-I'll miss talking to you. But, I promise I'll do everything I can to help bring you and the rest back. [ ... ] Even if you might not think you deserve it.
[ He doesn't know that for certain. But with the kind of response he gave when he arrived...maybe so. ]
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biyishuangfei) wrote2021-05-30 09:44 pm
Week 5, Post-Trial
He's not going to leave him be and say nothing before he passes, after all. ]
Raven? Are you awake?
[ In case he like, fell asleep or something, but he doubts it... ]
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Yeah. [...] I'm surprised that you want to speak with me, after everything.
[His tone remains emotionless like it did at the end of the trial. It's almost like he's a different person entirely at the moment.]</small.
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[ ... ]
...either way, I can't be too mad at you. This week, was...well, even I felt a little tempted. And as awful as it was those two died, I don't think I really was that close to either of them.
[ He'll admit to that much, at least. ]
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I suppose that's a little comforting.
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[ He'll sit down; it's not really pleasant here but he doesn't want to go away right now. ]
Do you mind if I ask what vision convinced you to do it, or...?
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He shakes his head when Huaisang asks about the visions. His answer ends up being surprisingly cold for him.]
It wasn't about the visions. I was just doing what had to be done.
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That's...it doesn't make sense.
It doesn't sound like something Raven would say. Or he supposed, the one he 'knew'. ]
...What do you mean 'what had to be done'? I don't understand.
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I was under orders to kill. I carried them out, as I always have.
[This isn't him trying to offer an excuse. It's simply the truth.]
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Huaisang has to pause, wondering how many masks did Raven have to wear in order to bury this until the moment necessitated it. ]
Under orders to kill? I never realized you ... did that sort of thing often back in your world.
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When pressed further on it, he lets out a small scoff.]
It's not something that I bring up in casual conversation nor something that I find much pleasure in doing, that's why.
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[ He folds his fingers tightly together, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment, before opening them again; thankfully no tears so maybe he is finally used to losing people he likes to hang aroud now. After reviewing this, he doesn't think this is something he could've prevented. No matter how hard he tried. Or anyone else, really. ]
I-I'll miss talking to you. But, I promise I'll do everything I can to help bring you and the rest back. [ ... ] Even if you might not think you deserve it.
[ He doesn't know that for certain. But with the kind of response he gave when he arrived...maybe so. ]