I used to believe that if I stayed ignorant of those things, and with those I loved that I wouldn't be affected by the cruel hearts of others who'd go so far.
[ He sighed softly. ]
But the actions of those people affect everyone eventually.
Even now...I think I have trouble understanding why people would lust after power, and if they couldn't have it, kill out of jealousy or in some way to obtain it. It just never seems worth it.
[ If he had his way, he would never be Sect Leader and his brother would be alive. Even his brother had been murdered for the sake of some power hungry game machinations. ]
To them it's worth it. It may be because some people are just ever hungry - for love, for power, for riches. They are born an empty well that has no end. In the regard, they're unlucky compared to us. They'll never know what it truly means to love - to be satisfied with the little things and live meaningfully.
...No, they won't. To be honest, the thought of losing the ability to love is a scary one to me.
[ ...At some point, he thought he lost that capability, but since he's come here, he's learned that he hadn't, and even though he hates their situation, he's happy he discovered this recently. Just as a thing in general.
That he can still care about others. ]
To me it feels like it's part of what makes even our hardship at least a bit bearable. Or any, really.
I...where did you—where did this come from all of a sudden?
[ His face is flushing entirely red. Huaisang has barely any idea to handle falling in romantic love clearly...look, this is his first time...it's so different experiencing it than reading it in books. ]
H-how did you even know?
[ Poor Huaisang doesn't even know how obvious he is with this, smh. ]
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Date: 2021-07-05 01:14 am (UTC)I used to believe that if I stayed ignorant of those things, and with those I loved that I wouldn't be affected by the cruel hearts of others who'd go so far.
[ He sighed softly. ]
But the actions of those people affect everyone eventually.
Even now...I think I have trouble understanding why people would lust after power, and if they couldn't have it, kill out of jealousy or in some way to obtain it. It just never seems worth it.
[ If he had his way, he would never be Sect Leader and his brother would be alive. Even his brother had been murdered for the sake of some power hungry game machinations. ]
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Date: 2021-07-05 01:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-07-05 03:00 am (UTC)[ ...At some point, he thought he lost that capability, but since he's come here, he's learned that he hadn't, and even though he hates their situation, he's happy he discovered this recently. Just as a thing in general.
That he can still care about others. ]
To me it feels like it's part of what makes even our hardship at least a bit bearable. Or any, really.
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Date: 2021-07-05 03:35 am (UTC)Lord McGillis?
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Date: 2021-07-05 04:27 am (UTC)H-how...no, wait! Um!
[ IT'S FINE TO SAY HE ADMIRES HIM AND SAY HE'S PRETTY HANDSOME ENOUGH TO HAVE A LITTLE CRUSH ON, BUT TO ADMIT HE'S ACTUALLY IN LOVE?! ]
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Date: 2021-07-05 04:31 am (UTC)[ His face is flushing entirely red. Huaisang has barely any idea to handle falling in romantic love clearly...look, this is his first time...it's so different experiencing it than reading it in books. ]
H-how did you even know?
[ Poor Huaisang doesn't even know how obvious he is with this, smh. ]
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Date: 2021-07-05 04:41 am (UTC)[ Tee-hee ☆ ]
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Date: 2021-07-05 11:28 am (UTC)[ Gdit ]
Well, I doubt you will tell anyone, but please don't.
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Date: 2021-07-05 07:10 pm (UTC)No one will hear anything from me, I promise.